Cody Haynes
Cody's Garden
I miss my boy Cody everyday. Many times the grief is so great and the feeling of loss I have is so deep that it completely overwhelms me. It is those times when I go and sit in Cody's garden.
I decided the first spring after he was killed that I would keep a garden in his honor. Nurturing and caring for flowers always reminds that life is a never ending circle. Life is a gift and we need to treat each day as such and cherish it.
When the garden is in full bloom it reminds me of just how beautiful Cody's spirit is and how he brought such joy to my life. I loved caring for him and being his Mom. The last few years I loved seeing the man he was growing into. I loved driving him to basketball practice everyday. I loved taking him to buy a new pair of basketball shoes every month. I loved attending his games. I loved buying him a new outfit to wear to the high school dance. I loved having him drive us over to his fiancé's house Jenine. I loved seeing how happy he was when he was with her. The drive each way was at minimum 30 minutes. It was on those drives that I loved talking to him about life and his plans for the future.
I am so very thankful to have my youngest son Carrick still here with me. I will do my best to nurture and care for him and continue to show him how much he is loved everyday. I want him to experience all the beautiful things that this world has to offer. And as I always do..... I will continue to remind him to stop and smell the flowers along the way.